well yesterday (tuesday) we were back in the city for my not so fun tests! i've had this test done before in amarillo before my last surgry and it sucks!!! not really sure what the correct term is but... they clamp something on your cervic and then they put a balloon in your utres and blow that up so they can see the linning in your utres! it's not fun but i think i did much better this time than last one i've had done. i cried like a baby on the last one,but this go round i knew it wasn't gonna be pleasant. and then they did what they call a trail run on when they put the embryos in my urtes. that wasn't too bad . just so happy that those tests are done and out of the way! on the way home we got to talking about what we were gonna do about the payment that's due on the 2nd!!! it was here holy molly! so we had talked about this program that you pay these people up front an x amount and you get 3 fresh embryo tries and 3 frozen embryo tires. and if that doesn't work you get 70% of your money back,but if it does work then the program is over! so i guess we've decided to go with that! if we went through the clinic it will be 9,000 plus meds which are 3-4,000! and this other program that we got approved for, is 16,000 plus meds! so.... we're taking a small risk by paying more but our life never goes like we hoped it will or nothing comes easy to us i guesss! so we just bit the bullett and did the program. the nurse at the clinic called and ordered my meds yesterday and i'll be talking to them asap to get it all paid for. hate paying that much money for meds but when they're all SHOTS i hate it even more!!! so brice and i are gonna be broke broke broke!! this is the first time we've really had to watch what we spend, and live on a budget! i know that all that would change when we finally got pregnant so it's just starting early! it's all gonna be ok i have faith! i'll get used to not buying whatever i want,working more than what i do now. i pray that my bussiness stays busy. so, we go back to the city on the 2nd for blood work,ultra sound and a shot class :) yeah!!! NOT! the calender we got on tuesday is super busy there's a lot of stuff on that thing, but it's nice to have so i will know what all is gonna be going on. i have to be in the city the 5th-15th! thanks goodness we have family that we stay with and i won't have to stay in a hotel ever! :) that's been a total blessing. and she's a nurse so she can give me my shot for those 10 days!!!
last night and this morning i felt like i was in fog! it's all so over whelming but, i know that God is holding my hand through all of this and he will lead the way! i wasn't in a good mood at all the today, i was so busy and trying to figure out the whole money thing with this IVF. i really just wanted to escape all day today! but i knew what ever i felt like in that moment that it would all be forgotten when i would hold my baby or even the day they say that i'm pregnant! i can't wait till all this is over and i'm holding my baby or babies!! i can't hardly wait!! brice has been so good through all of this and he knows it's gonna get worse with all these hormones but, he's really understanding and i know he feels bad that i'm having to go through all this. not sure he would trade me spots if he could but.... i know he does feel bad! i love him and i know we will get through this and will be on top when we do!!!! hope you all have a HAPYY THANKSGIVING,and be thankful for your family and the life you have. God bless
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