a relaxing day a home

today was a nice day. brice and i were both off, due to the fact that we thought we were gonna be in amarillo today doing our last A.I appt., but..... didn't hit positive today so maybe in the morning. if so we have to be on the road no later than 7 am! yuck, so much for sleeping in! oh well such is life.
so brice and i just hung out today took it easy. made homemade blueberry pancakes this morning, they were ok i guess. took a nap and went out and had super and watch a movie. so all in all i enjoyed my friday off with brice :)

Not much else has happened today. i'll be letting ya know how tomorrow goes if i hit positive. until next time! God bless

TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY! MY MOOD WAS GOOD . I MET ONE OF MY DEAREST FRIENDS COUSIN TODAY , AND SHE HAS DONE IVF THROUGH OK.CITY AND SHE WANTED TO ANSWER A FEW OF MY QUESTIONS.
SHE SAID THAT THE SHOTS WEREN'T THAT BAD AFTER THE FIRST COUPLE OF ONES. BUT SHE SAID.... THAT AFTER SHE CONCIEVED SHE HAD TO GET A SHOT IN HER HIP FOR THE 1ST TRIMESTER!! WOW THAT'S A LOT, THAT'S ALL I COULD THINK OF.
SHE SAID THOSE DID HURT AND SHE COULDN'T REALLY SIT WITHOUT IT HURTING . OMG ! I GUESS WHEN I KNOW THAT'S , MY NEXT OPTION FOR SURE I'LL HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT AND SUCK IT UP. BUT FOR NOW I'M SO FREAKING OUT!!! I HATE SHOTS AS IT IS! SHOTS FOR 5 MONTHS STRAIGHT IS JUST CRAZY. OH WELL I GUESS.
I JUST NEED TO WAIT AND SEE AFTER I TALK TO A DR . BUT OTHER THAN THAT ME AND KATLYN TALKED ABOUT THE WHOLE BABY THING FOR JUST A WHILE JUST, TALKING OUT LOUD REALLY. BUT MY DAY WASN'T CONSUMED WITH IT, THAT WAS A NICE CHANGE.

BRICE AND I ARE BOTH OFF TOMORROW. I PLAN ON JUST CHILLING AND TAKING A IT EASY! WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE GOING TO AMARILLO A.I APPT. SATURDAY! I REALLY HOPE IT WORKS THIS TIME AROUND. :) SO I'LL BE LETTING EVERYONE KNOW HOW IT GOES. GOD BLESS

today with the girls

i woke up this morining feeling alright. when i got to work my mood seemed to be down a little i don't know why but i was just feeling blah. but me and my mom,and 2 girlfriends and one other mom went to lunch. Katlyn's mom was asking me about what all was going on and how i was handleing it. And it was like i was talking about all of it as if was all gonna be ok. and my words were reasuring ME! ( if that makes any sense, ) it was like i was telling them about everything but i was really telling myself that it's all gonna be good and not to worry
i felt a 100 times better after lunch and my mood was chipper and carefree. it's amazing what talking about stuff can make a diffirence.

Today brice also called our fertility nurse Vicky and was asking her what if my tube is blocked or my endometreois is back and since i only have one ovary should we check my egg count. First of all it was nice for him to call her and handle it. But she said since i'm hitting a postive every month on my ov. kit and my porgesterone level was a 36 i am making eggs and enough of them, and that she doesn't think that my tube should be blocked that soon after surgry,so that isn't the problem.

So just another day not knowing what the heck is the problem. But i was worried about the egg count cause they haven't ever checked. So.... brice and i have decided to go ahead and do this last A.I and if it doesn't work then talk about what we're gonna do next. Either invetro or adoption. The whole thing scares me but i'm ready for something to happen, if that means getting poked with needles then i guess the Lord will give me the strength to do so. My dad might end up being the one that has to give the shots since he's a diabetic in all. So for now we are praying that this last A.I will take and i'll have great news.

But since last sunday when we went to church i've had this feeling that i know that becoming closer to the Lord and building our relationship with him will solve everything. I love the Lord and know that he loves me but i need to get closer with him. Maybe the Lord wanted brice and I to have our time to play and have fun with our freinds first and maybe this whole ordeal has happened to bring brice and i closer. that's all i can think for now. it keeps my spritis up and keeps my sanity normal. So until next time i write God bless!

a day with some useful info

today was a good day, while i was at work a girl that i know was in and she and her husband have been trying to get pregnant for 8 yrs! It really puts me in my place 3 yrs isn't so bad it could be a lot worse. but anyways, she has done a.i about 6 times and got pregnant once and lost her baby at 7 weeks. she decided that it wasn't gonna be the route for them so they went into invetro and got pregnant with twins and lost them at like 6 months i think? already had the baby beds put together and the baby shower was that weekend. it was an awful story. so after all that happened she and her husband decided to try again and she had 3 tries left and it took her second try to get pregnant but shes about 10 weeks now. i was so happy for her. so i got to asking her about the process of invetro and how bad it really was. she said she did have to give herself shots once a day for like 2 wks but she said that the needles were tiny and that she hated shots! so for her to do it wasn't really that bad. that was good news, not looking forward to that. but she really told me a lot that i didn't know like why they want you on lupron which is an awful drug, the dr.s don't want you to have a cycle and then they give you a drug that makes you produce a lot of eggs. that's just it, how do i know how many eggs i already produce what if that's the problem? but anyways, our conversation was good and helpful to me. she gave me her dr.'s card so maybe i'll look him up. other than that not a lot of baby talk which was nice, sometimes it is what my day is filled with. i know that people are just asking cause they care. i really have some great friends that care for us. God bless them

before i start writing about why i started a blog, i want to share who brice and i are. brice and i met years ago i knew as soon as i saw him he was for me. he was the cutiest cowboy i had ever seen i knew i had to have him. our relationship has had it's up and downs but at the end of all our trials we have been married for 5 yrs in oct. it has been an awsome 5 yrs and i know that he is my best friend now and will be in the next 50 yrs. we like to ride four wheelers, fish, watch movies hang out with our friends, go dancing. we have a lot in common. we have such a great life he works at a feedyard and i'm a hairdresser. but as great as our life is we are missing a little one in our family picture. i know that we both would be great parents we have so much love to give . we have been through a lot i have endometreosis pretty bad i have had 2 surgries and the last one they took my right ovary and tube, but the dr. said that everything looked really good and had no doubts that we wouldn't get pregnant. so 3 yrs after trying i'm starting to have doubts. brice and i have a good relationship with the Lord, it could be better but we know in our hearts that he has a awesome plan for us and we will be parents no matter how it happens. i have noticed how many people have problems getting pregnant now that it has happened to us. it's sad and i'm just wanting to reach out for someone that needs to listen to someone elses fertility problems cause it helps me out a lot to know that i'm not the only one with the same problems. so i'm writing so i can vent my thoughts and express how i'm feeling at the moment. i'm a writer i like to write down my feelings so i'm gonna give this a shot and see how well it works for me. will write again soon. God bless