today with the girls

i woke up this morining feeling alright. when i got to work my mood seemed to be down a little i don't know why but i was just feeling blah. but me and my mom,and 2 girlfriends and one other mom went to lunch. Katlyn's mom was asking me about what all was going on and how i was handleing it. And it was like i was talking about all of it as if was all gonna be ok. and my words were reasuring ME! ( if that makes any sense, ) it was like i was telling them about everything but i was really telling myself that it's all gonna be good and not to worry
i felt a 100 times better after lunch and my mood was chipper and carefree. it's amazing what talking about stuff can make a diffirence.

Today brice also called our fertility nurse Vicky and was asking her what if my tube is blocked or my endometreois is back and since i only have one ovary should we check my egg count. First of all it was nice for him to call her and handle it. But she said since i'm hitting a postive every month on my ov. kit and my porgesterone level was a 36 i am making eggs and enough of them, and that she doesn't think that my tube should be blocked that soon after surgry,so that isn't the problem.

So just another day not knowing what the heck is the problem. But i was worried about the egg count cause they haven't ever checked. So.... brice and i have decided to go ahead and do this last A.I and if it doesn't work then talk about what we're gonna do next. Either invetro or adoption. The whole thing scares me but i'm ready for something to happen, if that means getting poked with needles then i guess the Lord will give me the strength to do so. My dad might end up being the one that has to give the shots since he's a diabetic in all. So for now we are praying that this last A.I will take and i'll have great news.

But since last sunday when we went to church i've had this feeling that i know that becoming closer to the Lord and building our relationship with him will solve everything. I love the Lord and know that he loves me but i need to get closer with him. Maybe the Lord wanted brice and I to have our time to play and have fun with our freinds first and maybe this whole ordeal has happened to bring brice and i closer. that's all i can think for now. it keeps my spritis up and keeps my sanity normal. So until next time i write God bless!