well i've made it home from my cousins girl trip in mason tx. it was a lot of fun, we got to catch up and hear some really funny and sad stories. the whole time i was there the thoughts in the back of my head..... am i pregnant? everytime i had a cramp my hopes would go down a little then my cousins were telling me that they cramped right before they found out they were pregnant. so... my hopes would go back up. I really felt that i was pregnant this time. but sunday night at 11:27, "AUNT FLOW" came for a unwanted visit.:( so today i haven't been feeling too good i'm tired and i have cramps pretty bad today, besides my emotions ...... what are we gonna do? when are we gonna go to the dr. and see what he has to say, how long is the waiting time before we can get into the dr. and how much is this gonna cost us?
about a week or so ago i kept thinking that our life would be so much easier if we were pregnant. things would just fit into place and so much weight would be lifted off our shoulders. but i do know that this isn't in our control. i just have to keep my faith in the Lord and trust in him. he know what's best for us and won't put anything in front of us that we can't handle. so even though i don't think i can handle giving myself shots everyday and being on all sorts of meds, i guess i'll just have to, since that's looks like our next step, i guess i'll have to surprise myself .i'm ready to see what the dr has to say and hear his advice.
so today i'm gonna lay around and take it easy and do a little research on IVF,but... not too much i don't want to freak myself out. until next time, God bless
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